I never really considered myself a disciplined person when it comes to giving things up. As I reflect back on two things I eliminated from my life I realize it wasn't discipline that motivates me but its knowing its something I have to do to be a better me. Those two things that I have eliminated were drinking alcohol and cursing.
Not that I had a major drinking problem or anything I really had become just a social wine drinker in my adult years. I made the final decision to stop drinking in August 2009 after I picked a stupid fight when i was drunk with my then fiancé now husband and I had to say to myself was it really worth it. I also had the worst hangover of my life and I said its time for change. The little bit of fun I had being drunk wasn't worth the later repercussions. That was it for me and I haven't had a drink in almost 4 years. The hardest part at first was hanging with friends or family and they wonder why I wasn't having any wine or was I pregnant or what had changed. When I couldn't name one positive thing about drinking that's when I knew I made a right decision.
Now with cursing that was a little harder to stop doing because it was something that was so easy to just rattle off out my mouth and I didn't have to be angry but it was just general conversation. Was it that I thought my story sounded better or funnier when I cursed? I don't know honestly. Eliminating it from my mouth when I was angry was the hardest but I have come to be not nearly as angry or hot tempered as I used to be. I think it made me a happier person. I also think I made God happier because there are so many scriptures referencing the words that come out our mouths and how He doesn't want us speak obscenities.
Why am I going into such detail about these things? Because its time for round 3 elimination of toxic things in my life. For now I will start with food choices but I know there are other toxins that need removing too.
~SheHerbert
